"You're wishin' too much, baby. You gotta stop wearing your wishbone where your backbone oughta be.”
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why are guys so clueless when you're annoyed with them. rah.


bits of the consumer in me.

wild honey has the best chai latte ever.

and, i just bought a nice new organiser. it's white and blue and red. i like the smell of the fresh pages. wheeeee.





“I am the thorn in Your crown
But You love me anyway
I am the sweat from Your brow
But You love me anyway
I am the nail in Your wrist
But You love me anyway
I am Judas’ kiss
But You love me anyway”


mmm today's a happy happy talk-a-lot day. :)

i need more days like these, when we talk more about ourselves and times spent together. to integrate the him i knew as a friend and the him i know now. to re-ignite and remind me why i chose him in the first place.

oh and i asked him what are his languages of love, i guessed half correctly- it's time and touch. hehs.


"one half of knowing what you want is knowing what you must give up before you get it."

but g lenn's right. it would be unfair if i didn't dare to take the plunge just because i'm afraid i've made a mistake. if anything. my verdict should only come after trying, i shouldn't pronounce a death sentence on my relationship just like that.


learn to appreciate what you have before time makes you appreciate what you had.


and time will bring all truths to light.


omg what are the chances. she just spoke to me on msn. no animosity. so i went ahead and sought her advice. which put things into perspective instantly. thank God for friends like her. :)


dear friend, it doesn't mean that everything's rosy for me now, it's not as simple as a happily-ever-after. i wish you understood and i wish we could talk cos' i think you're probably the only one who would understand. but, i know it's hard for you too. sigh.


yeaa as long as i keep myself occupied, my mind won't wander to painful places...


being alone with your thoughts is the worst place to be. urgh. i still can't get over it and move on with things :( this is bad. but although he's the cause of it, it's essentially my problem because he can't do/undo anything. howzzz.


going to bed with a heart full of sighs. when you have too high expectations it sometimes gets so disappointing.


God and choices. a little revelation.

with God, it's never a "you must do this or else..." thing. He's a gentleman, just whispering His guidance into your ear, but never forcing you to follow His advice. if you do follow, good for you, but if you don't, He still watches over you trying to make your ways right. He never gives up and He never punishes - because all that has already been done at the cross. instead He's like a GPS, even if you miss a turn due to your own carelessness, He's gonna redirect you, and you can still end up in the right destination if you are willing to follow it.

He gives you options and honours your choices. even when it is less than ideal, He does not blame, as Jesus did not blame thomas for not believing in His resurrection. instead, He made sure to go to thomas first to show him His hands and sides. but of course, God honoured the other disciples who believed first, for "Blessed is he who have not seen yet believed". what a kind God we have!


have i only been chasing for perfection all this while?


one of my favorite things to do is to sit at the launch station of macritchie as they release the water out. look to the sky, stars, and dark silhouette of the forest, and feel God in the wide open spaces.


life's little comforts

haha i was showering just now and felt so happy when i realised I HAVE WARM WATER NOW! unlike my old house where the heater was spoilt and my lazy dad didn't wanna repair so i bathed in cold water for 3 years! it's not painful or anything but just uncomfortable especially when it gets to this cold rainy season and every bath turns into a teeth-chattering and jittery-jumpy affair.

went for my pre-employment exam just now and developed the photos and bought the shoes and i have pretty much done my errands for the week! i just need to go down sometime (probably tmr) to get my last vaccination.

and wandering around raffles place, i found nail polishes which are really similar to the OPI Pirates of the Carribean collection i've been eyeing for a while. i love the murky sea colours. the nail polishes i found though, were 1/6 the price! i bought two and are about to try them now!


haha so crazy. h azel and i were just saying how it's amazing we met this south african family in vietnam, of which consists a 12-year-old boy and 14-year-old girl. and how we could totally talk and connect with them. and no, it's not because we act young ahem. we were wondering isit because ang mohs are more mature for their age.. in any case, even when my own cousins were 12, and i was like 15, i can't imagine talking to them in the same way!


uplifting, comforting. you're as a warm bath on a chilly night.


looking at sweden's pictures re-ignited my desire to go live there. plus s arah and e mil are coming to town with their lovely swedish-singaporean baby. plus it's spring there now! plus singapore's weather is crazily hot these few days.

can't help but feel that as life goes by there'll be more and more things weighing me down here. first, it's my job. second, my family? as my parents get older. des is not one of them cos' he loves sweden the same way i do but his job might be.

sverige, why are you so love-able and unforgettable? even after a year...

i just pray that if i never go back there in the end, God will open doors to new places which are just as beautiful. or, open doors in my heart to accept living a simple happy life right here.


hmm i dunno. i guess i'm so comfortable right now cos' i'm detaching, keeping my distance, not letting myself fall too deep. that's the only reason why i'm not as upset with him as i should be. i guess, we all need time.


gotta be more to life.

i love my room now. so pretty! now i just need a new chest for my bags and some new curtains.

BUT i seriously wana live overseas. i spend ages on facebook looking at the pictures of people who are living overseas. i guess, when you're overseas, your facebook profile gets so concentrated. versus the diluted life i have now. so all-over-the-place. if ya get what i mean.