"You're wishin' too much, baby. You gotta stop wearing your wishbone where your backbone oughta be.”
-

RAH. listening to club music makes me feel like going clubbing. d es they all went yesterday but i couldn't because... ya.

FIGHT THE FEELING!!


just came back from lyrical hiphop class last night with the churchies and omg, love! haha and i can do lyrical hiphop! love dancing to the pulses and texture of the music instead of the counts. WHEE. :D

though i'm aching so bad now, my neck, my shoulder blades, inner thighs, thighs, calves etc., i'm like thinking of the chereo 24-7 cos' it's so nice. rahhh. chereo to fallin' out by keyshia cole. it really makes me wanna go for the auditions for easter on saturday but i know i shouldn't. i spoke to j oy and a nn and they also said i should concentrate on my studies because such opportunities will always be coming. i have this feeling inside of me that is egging me to join this performance but i know wisdom would say no. no no no :(

well, i hope the christmas item is comtemp - i would grab the chance to perform with all my life haha!

now... i guess i have to just join open classes till saturday to stave off those "dance pangs". darn! i really feel like going for easter. AHHHHH!!!!


horrific realisation that i take on average 96 panadols per year. how ah. stupid cramps :(


omgosh time is crawling. i am still super nervous for the interview HAHA. so nervous i've been having a mild headache/malaise since friday. rahh. i know i'm making a mountain out of a molehill. once i start applying for many other jobs, and getting many other interviews (i hope!), it won't be so bad anymore! hurray to psycho-ing myself. ahhh can't wait for monday to be over!!


omgosh first proper job interview ever! SCARED :(

and i decided not to dance for easter already. no time. meeting up with the dancers on weds but i. cannot. change. my. mind. seriously the first half of the sem was crazy enough. now papers are due and projects start coming in.

wanted to join j ess's contemp jazz class but it started 2 weeks ago -.- hmm. i guess i can go for the open class. but i think it'll be a bit fast for zy cus he got no background. hahs dunno. prepare for interview first! it's gonna be one hectic recess week as usual!


when i am weak, then i am strong.

stupid fever be gone. come on, just one more lap tomorrow, i can't collapse now. just wait for tomorrow, and then this episode of my service to God will be complete. i'm rather apprehensive because i hadn't had much time to study for my midterms but i will just trust that He will abound and multiply whatever i have given up for Him.

ah i'm gonna put a link here to note to myself some answers i found:
1) to how God uses the problems in our lives, including physical ailments, to bless and shape us. it challenges what i thought about how He heals all but i will ponder about it later when i have time.
2) to my conversation with b enita about how God will not "punish" you if you don't have enough faith. i like this line: "A weak faith is still faith and it can move the highest mountains if God wills it. God does not require a certain level of faith from us, just faith in itself."

okay till later! I NEED TO STUDY AND MEMORISE X13932358485648 THINGS!!!!



strange how you suffice for now.


omg studying for IO psych is driving me nuts. urgh. the prof really cannot communicate well and her slides are incomprehensible!!


random memory of when i was studying for o levels in y ouyi's house. i was studying on her bed, and she was studying at the table.

me: (hears rustling sound and looks up) uhh. y ouyi, don't scream but there's a huge monkey behind you. and it's grabbing some potato chips.

y ouyi: (looks behind and screams)

monkey: (grabs the whole bag of chips, runs to the window and climbs down)

of course we locked the windows after that. but later, we saw the same monkey, coming down again past our window with an onion it stole from someone living higher up -.-

and then, again, with a mandarin orange.

haha. hilarious.


gravity.

of all people, don't i know best how the icy scandinavian air and blankets of white refreshes your mind and aids forgetting?

one of my favorite dances. :)




the day was today and gosh, WAS IT AWESOME!! :D

i had so much fun backstage monkeying around with the rest of the dancers. so goofy and so much laughter! though it was a really tiring 4am to 630pm day of four performances, wow. each time i went on stage, i really really enjoyed myself and couldn't help smiling and having that twinkle in my eye - it was contagious! especially the last service, t eresa described it as how we were "feeding energy off the crowd". we cheered and jumped and whooped with the crowd, and really danced our all out.

really, it's eleven as one, for the audience of One. i am truly amazed and satisfied by this journey. YEAHHH!!!! conquerors!! :)


it's been an intensive week of dance preparing for the performance this sunday, and everyone's really trying their best, trying too hard sometimes. the last week was really crazy, with many people sustaining injuries as we just practise and practise.

what j oy said last practice really spoke to me. that throughout this time, we made many decisions. and He knows each and every decision we made, He honours them. it touched me particularly because i remember how at the start, i was so close to quitting because i felt that it was for the better of the team. i felt so lousy and inexperienced, but in the end, i made the decision to just go on, and trust in Him. now i have seen, how He has transformed me, and whatever i could not do, He has filled in the gaps. i know that my improvement is not natural, because i have tried to learn hiphop in the past, and um, it wasn't a very good attempt. but yes, like j oy said, He honours our choices, and His strength is made perfect in our weakness. especially when the very purpose of this dance is to glorify Him this festive season. i believe that on stage on sunday, whenever we are lacking in strength, stamina or even groove, He will meet our needs above and beyond our expectations. and we will dance for His glory.

for in Him we live, and move, and have our being.