"You're wishin' too much, baby. You gotta stop wearing your wishbone where your backbone oughta be.”
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my insurance cheque is HEREEEEE. hurray.

things we talk about during lunch at work: TOTO - 8 million dollars prize. all my colleagues went to buy today after we ate lunch but my in-charge didn't let me! haha. she was afraid my mom would think they are a bad influence on me. but after we spoke so much about it during lunch, i super felt like buying. 8 million!! hmm.. i don't even know what i'd do with that kind of money. i'd still want to work, but then i'd be able to choose my dream job instead of looking at the pay! can open a small cafe or something, or go to cambodia to do that internship which i have been eyeing for ages but probably will not ever get the chance to do anymore. probably give half to my parents(they manage money so much better than me) and buy more houses and rent them out. hahahaha. ya anyway i didn't buy la so... talk so much for what haha.

first retailer event tomorrow and i don't know what to expect! ahh but i'm so tired, work drains me so much that i fall asleep on the bus and am turning in at 11pm everyday. i don't even have the mental strength/time to watch my korean dramas anymore. rahh. okie it's almost bedtime. goodnight world!


guard your heart. please give me a steel wall thank you.


i'm pretty happy with my new job. i get to wear nice clothes to office (à la gossip girl) because it's a firm on the creative side anyways, and there are cartoon characters all over the office so the whole place looks very happy. the best part- we are dealing with comic book, movie and cartoon characters whom i grew up with! i can openly watch movie trailers on the job because i mean, i need to keep up right? jackpot. not that i'll have much time to do so anymore though, things will get crazily intensive come monday because of the tight event deadlines. the only shortcoming of the job is that i don't get my own desk and the pantry is pathetic (okay at least there's one) - i was really looking forward to having my own space where i can bring my nice mug and stick up pictures and have the nicest desk in the whole office. rah. there are not enough desks to go around now but HR says i'll probably get one at the end of the month. so now, i'm sharing a table with the senior sales manager. hur hur.


you know how in 'stardust', the witches had to find the star, and cut out her heart to eat in order to keep their power and youth? sometimes i feel like that with j enric. in the sense that because we saw each other through so many crucial moments in sweden, we explored the lands together, and explored our lives - discussing the possibilities of doing so many other things rather than just working to our deaths in singapore. well sad to say, having returned to singapore for about a month now - meeting up with friends who have graduated, friends who have started working, and facing the reality of life - whatever new directions i had is now slowly fading away into the same old routine i had before i even left. now that j enric's freshly back from lund, i just can't wait to hang out with her because you know, she's fresh, with all our young dreams still intact. it's ironic because in sweden, she said i was the one who inspired her. now all my the inspiration's run dry. i'm actually hoping to get a whiff of swedish air from her, meet the person who knew me before i became all apathetic again and maybe that magical air will enthuse me somehow? it's so insane right. but anything, anything to remind me that there's a bigger world out there than just wanting to join the rat race and carve a career out for myself. which is what i'm finding myself worrying about these days.

i really dread graduating, because i think i won't be brave enough to really do what i want to do.


something meaningful from a friend's blog (:

if God answers your prayer, he is increasing your faith. if He delays, He is increasing your patience. if He doesn't answer, He has something better for you.





BOSS can go and eat shit!!


r achel, k aj and u lf from sweden came to visit singapore yesterday! d es and i brought them to eat at some taiwanese foodplace at liang seah st. they have been to the universal studios and casino, both of which i haven't been to - i felt like the tourist instead, asking them about it haha! t'was fun!