"You're wishin' too much, baby. You gotta stop wearing your wishbone where your backbone oughta be.”
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when your heart isn't enough.

been coping quite well these few days, but as it draws nearer to valborg (30 april), i'm getting a little bit more emotional again. it's the official start of spring, yes i thought i'd be spending it with him in the sunshine and flowers and grass, and we were looking forward to it the whole winter.

plus, i was supposed to go watch him perform at the pub tomorrow night. the other three times he invited me to go, i had other commitments, and for the 30th april, i promised i would go. well, i guess i can't keep it now. it's gonna be a hard time tomorrow night, trying to force myself to stay again. i really love to watch him play the guitar, at his house the other time, he couldn't sing for me because he had a sore throat. i guess i'll never have the chance to hear him live.

ahhh. i think going out of the country might be good for me, but i love lund so much, i can't bear to leave, not even for a short trip. i think i just need to get out of the house. go for a jog, or a walk, or something. bye.