"You're wishin' too much, baby. You gotta stop wearing your wishbone where your backbone oughta be.”
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usually it's just a dull aching pain, when you're keeping yourself busy in the day. but it hurts more in the morning, when you wake up and as soon as you reach consciousness the cold hard truth hits you again, it's fresh in your head. and at night when you're lying in bed with nothing else to think about. you feel like you can't really breathe as something is clamping down on your heart tighter and tighter, an uncomfortable feeling, swirling inside and exploding to get out, and there's nothing you can do to stop it but just clench your fists and break out in cold sweat.