"You're wishin' too much, baby. You gotta stop wearing your wishbone where your backbone oughta be.”
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when you feel like you're tired, you've been trying way too hard to make things right, rest in the knowledge that He will guide your paths and remember to remember that the world does not depend on you alone, but God is in the bigger picture!


dinner today was great. he cooked meatballs, potatoes with lingonberry jam and french salad. the food was so good and the conversation too.

then i asked if he could play his guitar for me, and so we went to his room and he was really really good, having gone to music school. he tried to teach me a little but i was so bad at it. seriously i have no idea why i have problems remembering the fingerings of the chords, i mean, i am trained in grade 8 in piano - i should have some musical advantage at least right? haha.

yup. i think i overstayed my welcome too, felt bad about that because he has a class at 8am tomorrow. i should have asked if i was intruding... i stupidly just thought he had the whole night free and didn't say anything. he had to like, yawn obviously. then i got the hint and said it's late i should be going. hahs. rahhhh.

the more i hang out with him, the more i think we'll just be friends. haha. i don't know. but he is so cute. realised almost all his clothes are green. cos' they always match his eyes. hahaha. ahh. i don't feel the racing heartbeat or the jumpiness while waiting for his text message anymore cos' i think today just quenched the fire somehow. sighhhh. see how things turn out after i return from stockholm.

God always manages to surprise me with his goodness. i should just learn how to rest in faith and accept whatever comes and not try to anticipate or anything.


there are times when i just get pangs of wanting to see him. like these few weeks, all i'm looking forward to is when is the next time i can see him again. i keep counting down the days.

he sent me a nice friendly message from goteborg which made my heart skip a beat - "big hugs from GBG!" hee. so teenage-girly right.

i wish i had him on facebook or something, at least a picture to look at? but i think there's something about the swedes and the whole let's-not-add-each-other-on-facebook-first thing? so i dare not ask. i don't know - in singapore, it's like the first thing you ask for after your number.

monday monday monday.


rah i'm so bored with nothing to do. took out two mushrooms from the fridge, wrapped them with bacon and baking them at the moment. i've been doing my paper for a whole day now and i've got a headache :(


everytime i wait for a text from him, i feel like my heart is going to beat right out of my chest.

don't like this feeling. i feel too... volatile.

rah. exam tomorrow. how to studyyyy.


i don't want to wake from this beautiful dream.


unbelievable.

sings, plays the guitar and the drums in a band. writes his own songs. plays football in a team. loves volunteer work. loves travelling. gentlemanly. cute. funny.

somebody PINCH ME.

it seems too good to be true. no matter what this is, thank you, God, for moments like these. ((:


working at a club.

you stand behind the bar, sober as a judge, taking orders from intoxicated people. the music pulsates, you see them dancing. they're in a world of their own. you are, too, keenly observing them. as if the bar, which separates you from the dance floor, is a wall separating you from another dimension. they scream, they laugh, they ask for another drink. you give it to them.


it was just a day, and suddenly all the snow was gone. spring is here i guess. man I'm starting to miss the snow already. the silence, whiteness, and stillness of everything. that's the end of the only winter i'll probably ever experience in my life.