"You're wishin' too much, baby. You gotta stop wearing your wishbone where your backbone oughta be.”
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My grades this sem are really in the pits.

2 B-'s and 2 B+'s. Not even a single A.

And I thought Marketing and MPW would help pull me up.

Argh. Upset.

I'm so gonna work hard next sem. Been too easy on myself. Jiayou me!


Whoo it's been a long time. Since the December holidays started, I must say I have been very happy and blessed! Stayed over in school last night and it was awesome fun!

But I guess life cannot always be smooth-sailing. You know, my intuition about some things are always spot-on. Like I knew it way before she herself knew it. Needless to say, yesterday on the bus, when she said she had something to confide in me, I already knew what she was about to say. And when she was hesitating to find the words, I was trying to keep my smile and look encouraging, despite me wishing hard "no no don't tell me" inside. She didn't in the end. Phew. It does make a difference and yet it doesn't, because I went home with a heavy heart still.

Just have to remind myself that I really have to be cool and calm in this situation. By right, this shouldn't have any effect on my actionplans. So I have to remind myself to stay on track and not let myself get affected my emotions. Have to remind myself that it doesn't have any effect! So continue what I am are doing. Just continue being friends because any other way would be instant suicide. And the rest, I'll just leave it to fate.

Another thing, I don't know if I should tell the fourth party involved. If it did matter to him I would tell him, but it's hard for me to rationalise in this state of mind and I'm so scared I'll end up telling him just cos' I feel bitchy. Haha. I should just keep mum for now. Aiya. Why can't everyone just be an open book?