"You're wishin' too much, baby. You gotta stop wearing your wishbone where your backbone oughta be.”
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2 issues.

I shall not be a victim of my own mind.

I should be more rational, instead of being stubborn and crushing reality and making everything worse.

I certainly do not need another mess on my hands at the moment.

I know I have this bad habit of closing doors and complaining that I don't get enough opportunities, but really will XXX kindly go away?

Cause' I'm getting moresuper grossed out and scared of how things will turn out every minute.

edit: Okay I just realised my willpower is like zilch cos' after I've settled my mindset and everything, one more word from him and I'm back to square one.


Argh I'm very worried for the exams. Seriously think I'm gonna do badly for MA and MS. But I'm so scared that I don't even dare to start studying... as exaggerated as it might sound, this fear is really paralysing! Like if I don't touch my MA and MS books, at least I won't know how much I don't know yet! Aiyo. Very very bad. And because I dare not start studying, that's why I went out the whole day. Haha.

Karaoke was super fun. Then we went for the frog leg porridge at Chinatown, then durian and then dessert! Yums. And all this is justified because I burmt so many calories with inline hockey yesterday! So fun. But I wasn't hiting the puck in the correct way, because I realised the wrong muscles are aching now.

Oh man. I shouldn't be blogging. Okays, I shall go dig out my textbooks now.


Urgh. You know how with some people your blood boils just talking to them? It's not like they did anything to anger you, it's just that, just like there's "chemistry", there's also "dis-chemistry". I get so annoyed talking to him, and everything he says just makes me more and more irritable! Have you ever felt like that? Like... you don't like how he assumes that he's doing you a favour when he's telling you what you already know, how he's making such a big deal of things, how he's asking questions and more questions to things you're not obliged to tell him, how you can't get the jokes he's trying to make and just feel annoyed! In fact, you have a problem with everything he says! Like you'll be rolling your eyes while typing something else. The worst thing is that he is so dense he can't tell you're pissed. Okayys I'm being quite mean but seriously! -.-

I hate how ambiguous everything is at the moment. Like how every word, line and even silence could be interpreted as one way or another. I guess it's the case of "damned if I do, damned if I don't". The suspense is killing me! I don't know what I should do.

Bit by bit I feel regret creeping into my skin :(



Yes the classic "Yun situation" has occurred again! Okay I actually don't mind being the occasional source of drama for my friends to watch but I need to turn this around quick because I myself can't take the drama!

Following Amanda's advice and trying to psych myself up for Friday. Rah rah rah!

Faith is faith precisely because it is blind. But it is so hard to just let go of something and put your whole life into someone else's hands.

I'm trying, I'm trying, because I know this is the only way.

(:


Okay this is getting a little unhealthy because we are so addicted to skating! First we used to skate once a week, then more and more until there are random skating sessions coming up as and when we like it!

I'm so looking forward to skating tomorrow! But that means I can't do my homework! And can't rehearse for my presentation on tuesday! This is how addicted I am. Haha. Shall try to do it tonight.

Three more weeks till the exams man. I have to FOCUS sooner or later!

I'm always getting myself into the same kind of situation, time and time again. ARGH. Trying to get out but found out too late and I think I'm stuck for now. I wonder what's the cause of it? Is it the external environment or just me? I'll just have to wait it over and wait it out.