"You're wishin' too much, baby. You gotta stop wearing your wishbone where your backbone oughta be.”
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i'm so tired. and it's only my second day at work.

i don't dare specify too much in case i get sued(haha!) but basically, my company is giving out a couple of awards to banks and such, so what i did today, to put in a very simplified way, was to prepare the judging sheet, after sorting out the nominations yesterday.

tomorrow we're working on another event whereby i will get to call the companies to invite them. yay finally something more like what i expected.

of course i still find myself thinking about my old company. though i complained on and on about it, now that i'm not working there anymore, i start to appreciate my time there, how everything was so predictable and thus, safe. that's always my problem you know, i can never ever cherish something which i still have. i think it's more like a habit because i can't break it.

today i got kind of told off for the most ridiculous thing, in my opinion - helping to take down a phone message. this lady called for my boss and he wasn't there so i offered to take the message down, and pass it to him. after a while he called for everyone's attention and said he didn't want us to take down any messages for him because he's not gonna call back and can you imagine how many messages he would get per day etc etc. at least he said it in a general way to everyone to save me the embarrassment but i was still pretty urgh-ed. like this is what i get for being helpful?!

i wonder what his reaction will be when i show up in jeans tomorrow. my colleagues said it's alright but i don't really trust them anymore seeing that they were the ones who told me to take down a message for the boss. haha. oh well.

was also forced to revert back to my childhood name because my company is a tiny multi-national company and they can't pronounce my chinese name. it'll take me some time getting used to it again.

no one ever tells you that forever feels like home, sitting all alone inside your head.

well i guess that's all for today.