"You're wishin' too much, baby. You gotta stop wearing your wishbone where your backbone oughta be.”
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back from the bowling competition held by my company today. i only chose to be a spectator because i find the moment when you have to walk back to your seat after rolling the ball particularly awkward. i never know where or how to look, and worst still, chances are that all eyes will be fixed on you. it was quite fun though, especially seeing all those office-workers go crazy after a strike, but i left early to go home with a colleague.

i'm pretty surprised that i was actually able to converse with her. i always thought i was a rather talkative person who could talk to almost anyone, but after starting work, i realised that was only limited to people about my own age, and who speak mainly english. okay so that cancels out the "almost anyone" part. the point is i've been so quiet at work that i would hardly recognise myself if i tried. and after a while, i just can't be bothered thinking of topics to talk about and trying to phrase them in proper chinese which people can actually understand that it becomes easier to be quiet. you know? like everyone knows you as the quiet girl anyway so you might as well be. anyway, there was a flicker of my old self back as i chatted with my colleague. though she is nowhere near my own age(her children are, though, haha), she speaks english. and maybe that's why.

so now i know the importance of speaking good chinese. and i'm improving! my chinese has become from "potato" to "malaysian chinese" (the cleaning auntie thought i was a malaysian cos of the way i speak chinese, haha!)... and hopefully soon i'll be able to speak to the customers from china.


doesn't mean much.
doesn't mean anything, at all.


haven't been blogging much recently, but only because there's nothing much to blog about. everyday's the same - work, home, then some tv and perhaps the piano, never making it past ten. i'm so exhausted i fall asleep the moment my head touches the pillow. well at least my insomnia's gone.

it's not that i don't like my job, i don't like working in general. because i'm a lazy pig. haha. but it's getting better now, i'm talking more to my colleagues despite the enormous age gap, and i'm getting better at my job! though my clumsiness and carelessness kills me sometimes.

i always get a thrill when i see planes landing from my office, flying so low that they're almost skimming the top of the hdb buildings. probably it's because i've never been this near a flying plane before(excluding the times when i'm actually in it), so huge, so loud, so excitingly close. sometimes i'm crossing the overhead bridge and i see a plane, just one street away from me. the feeling is just, wow.


the miracle worker, is also flawed.

crack.


i don't even enjoy doing this. scroll, click, buy. buy. buy. there's no more fun because i don't really consider anymore, i'm too tired to. and now i'm too tired even to read the mails from the sellers. i've bought and paid for so many things but haven't received any of them yet. don't scam me! but actually it really doesn't matter because i won't need those things anyway. my heart aches for my bank account though, retail therapy is always so expensive.

tomorrow, tomorrow.

i missed the oc again! sigh.

i can't wait to meet up with somebody. anybody. i really enjoyed time with the girls last weekend because i could finally let go and be my crazy self and not that prim and proper person i'm required to be at work.

he's too pretty to be a boy.


we met for nye's steamboat yesterday, and after the rest left, shuwen, fen, marie, manda and i went to countdown and watch the fireworks. it was enthralling - as fireworks always are. somehow, no matter how many times you've seen them before, every time is still as magical as the first time.

so it's 2007. in the past, i've never really felt the significance of the new year. like, it's just the new year, maybe new school, okay, new friends, okay, so what? but this year, it's different, kind of like i'm relieved to leave the past behind. maybe because 2006 wasn't a very good year for me, what with all the stress from a's and other issues as well. in addition, this year marks the beginning of a new phase for all of us. from now onwards, we'll be leaving school life behind us, forever, teetering on the edge of adolescence towards young adulthood.

i read this from melody's blog, it's a quotation from snow cake. "the past is only a memory, the future is only a fantasy, the present is where we truly live."

may the year ahead be a fruitful one for all of us.

*credits to sarah for the word "teetering"!