"You're wishin' too much, baby. You gotta stop wearing your wishbone where your backbone oughta be.”
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it's lucky that i registered for econs tuition last week. because when i went today, the teacher announced that they weren't accepting any more people! well, except on one thursday slot with a funny timing i think. argh i really hope it helps. because it made me feel so mentally drained, that after tuition i just slept through the afternoon. wasted a whole saturday. and i'm still sleepy?

i've got a granny smith apple smoothie craving! lol. think i'm getting it tomorrow :)

i don't know what to write for schoolbuzz and i'm trying to force myself to think. but. i think. i'm too sleepy.

so, g'night.


went to nyp for lunch after school today. it's been so long since we last went there, like three months? compared to last year where we went there almost twice every week.

anyway, i think the food has got better. like the breaded fish isn't so stoney-hard anymore, and the fried rice is more edible. and we discovered really cute shops! the college book store there sells adorable stuff, and there's this shop which only sells elmo and superman merchanise. i wonder how they survive. i don't think there's a very large market for cartoon stuff in nyp. haha.

it rained and we cabbed back to school. yeah, from nyp. -_-"

hard work pays off, i think.


i refuse to get your hints.

too late to take any chances.


God will make a way
when there seems to be no way.
He works in ways we cannot see,
He will make a way for me.
He will be my guide,
hold me closely to His side.
with love and strength for each new day
He will make a way,
He will make a way for me.


urgh! i don't know what's wrong with me. sometimes i really hate my body cos' weird ailments keep happening to it. alright. i don't hate it. but i get mighty irritated.

i thought my ankle was fine already because the x-ray results said everything was normal. but today, at school, my whole foot swelled up. plus, the allergy started acting up again! the rashes had subsided on one part of my foot, but it spread to another part too. soon my whole ankle will be wrinkled and peeling from all that scratching. and it's no use telling me not to scratch because i can't help it.

also, today i was complaining of mosquito bites all over my body. after close inspection by fen and amanda, they told me it wasn't mosquitoes, it was some kind of rash thingy (another one?!). but the rash on my body is different from the rash on my ankle. the one on my ankle is little bumps concentrated in one area, the one all over my body are isolated big bumps, and at random places. and i don't think it's chicken pox cos' i had it already. i sure hope it's not man.

you won't believe my luck. but my left ear also looks like it's gonna fall off! it's really red and itchy! and really swollen too. i tell you i'm dying la.

think i'm wearing slippers to school again tomorrow. actually i wanted to spare my poor schoolmates the trauma of seeing my foot but no choice, it's too swollen to fit into my shoe. now my foot looks like i've some kind of skin disease. fen said diabetes specifically. personally i think it looks like my foot got amputated and the one i have is a fake foot they stitched on for me. doesn't help that my big toe is black. like really black. it looks so gross that even i avoid seeing and touching it if i can.

argh. how. all the germs in my body quickly go away!

i should probably go on a detox or vegetarian diet or something.


potc is really good! went to watch it with sarah fen jieije and meimei after school today. it's much darker compared to the first one. the curse of the black pearl was very straightforward, the good guys were good and the bad guys were bad. but for dead man's chest, the story became much more complex, maybe more realistic, in a way. as in now, the characters are more well-developed, you see both their good and bad side. one very irksome thing about it is, there is no ending! i hate shows like that cos' i always feel unresolved. makes me feel like smashing the screen and screaming into it, "tell me what happens next!!"

ohh, and orlando is just,whoa.

i feel like getting remember 2. should i? because it's kinda waste-money for me. fen was looking at the song list, and asking me the tunes of some songs, and i knew most of them! which means that i probably heard it somewhere before, in my dad's car or something. which means, that i have probably have the whole albums lying around my house, and just need to go dig them up. but i'm too lazy to. and the songs they compiled for remember 1 were great, i sleep to them even. so? i think i should! haha.

smallville is getting more and more boring. i gave up watching it halfway through last season, and only made an effort in catching's this season's, because clarke could finally be with lana. but even that is boring me out. so gave up again after the first two episodes. haha. but charmed is back, better than ever! and the ghost whisperer is fantastic too! i always tear when i watch it, and it's so irritating cos' i'll wake up on saturday morning with ugly swollen eyes.


as if it's not bad enough that i twisted my ankle, now it's itching like crazy because i'm allergic to the medicine! and believe me, extreme itchiness is far worse than extreme pain.

also apparently, i've flouted quite a number of rules, or so people have told me, and according to what they say, i can expect to get rheumatism in the future, and to have my toenail drop off. how delightful.

to kirsten in case she does not get my sms, sarah was saying something about her line being terminated:
take care okay! have fun in nz and contact me when you come back to visit. i'll miss you! :)


it's weird how it is with some people, time plasses and you forgot how once upon a time you were even friends. like you used to have so much in common, and yet, after not contacting them for a while, you realise that their whole lives, they themselves have changed so much, that you're unable to recognise anything, not even a slightest hint of the past; they have become strangers.

it's sad.


somehow i don't find shopping as enjoyable as before. hmm. maybe i'm growing old.

anyway, i was at fep today, when someone hugged me from behind. lol. at first i thought it was dorene, cos' tanned arms were all i could see. then, i saw her friend in front of me and thought it looked like elsa's friend, so i thought it was elsa, because elsa's tanned too. then she let go of me, and i was stunned momentarily cos' i couldn't recognise who it was. none other than meiling, our "gang leader" in primary school. haha. nice to see her again. anyway, she was pinching my cheeks and saying, "how come like that?" haha. apparently i had grown chubbier since secondary school? urgh! so horrible. but how do you lose weight off your cheeks?!

school starts again tomorrow! i know it's really freaky that i'm actually looking forward to it, but i've been so bored lately i've been watching my plants grow. haha.


today, words failed me, and all i could muster was a weak "thank you", hoping that they'll somehow know.

sometimes, what means most is the unspoken.


sentosa with the girls. it was quite funny because it seemed like the whole beach were filled with aj people? we were playing vball and in the court behind us, were the vball guys and behind us, were the guys from 1805. haha. it was really fun, reminds me of why i love sentosa so much. the happy atmosphere, the coconut-ty, vanilla-ey smell of tanning oil, and the sun, sand and sea! we stayed all the way from morning to around seven, but i felt we could stay there forever just watching the clouds and sunset.