"You're wishin' too much, baby. You gotta stop wearing your wishbone where your backbone oughta be.”
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at first i thought i could just leave it all behind me. but now i realise that two negatives can actually make a positive, and though i know it's wicked, i wished that that didn't happen, at least it would make it easier for me to cope, at least i knew wouldn't be the only one sinking slowly into self-destruction. i didn't want to be alone, though even if there were others with me, they wouldn't really be with me. i would still be by myself, behind the cold walls of glass.

i'm also upset because i missed world prayer day. slipped my mind completely. if not i would have been in the national indoor stadium by this time.

it's a curse to be able to infer so much from just one sentence which others would have dismissed as random.