"You're wishin' too much, baby. You gotta stop wearing your wishbone where your backbone oughta be.”
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hello blog. it's been a long time.

the mids are finally over, and i'm still alive! can't be sure about that after i get back my results though. oh well, it's always like that anyway. haha.

had plans to go to bugis today after the papers, to do present shopping for a number of people and to buy materials. but i was so drained i just couldn't bear it, headed straight home. even during chem, i was already completely fatigued. just leaned back on my chair, my hand sprawled on the table, and stared at the paper. i think i sighed a few thousand times too during those few hours.

i don't even think i'll want to go out tomorrow. i cannot even begin to describe the extent of my tiredness.

yay i finished watching high school musical. it's one of those teen movies which are dumb and unpredictable but i like them anyway.


on tuesday youyi came to my house. i was trying to talk her into staying over but somehow, i got talked into staying over at her house instead. so we set off after dinner stopping at coronation to get snacks to eat over the world cup. then wednesday woke up late, ordered mcdelivery for breakfast. by the way, their orange juice is like, bleah! super diluted. like drinking sour water plus pulp. then did a bit of work. went down to the pool after lunch, swam for an hour or so, then got back to work for like fifteen more minutes, before i headed home in time for singapore idol. haha. a rather unproductive two days.

today went to town with dorene amanda huifen. lucky dorene's flying off to bangkok tonight. haha.

and shucks it's friday tomorrow! friday of the second last week! and i'm not even done with my second chapter of maths. urgh so dead.

okay i'm sleepy, gonna catch up on more sleep. pardon the bad grammar, i think for this entry, i'm just blogging for the sake of blogging haha.


i hope time stretches tomorrow.


the dance performance at the esplanade was great, though some items were a tad too abstract for my liking. then supper at this new prata shop in thomson, called the prata cafe. it's quite cool, they serve italian prata, which actually tastes like a cross between prata and pizza.

haha it's so weird. just yesterday (i think it was yesterday), i was complaining how i didn't have enough time to study, and today i was totally slacking away. my focus just comes and goes. hmm, i guess you can't really call it focus then. haha. i think i slept too much today because for the whole day i felt that there was this giant hand gripping the left side of my head. oww. darn the headaches, having them so often recently. and heartaches too (i mean literally). like just now i was eating and suddenly i had difficulty breathing, because everytime i took a breath my heart would hurt.

okay i should go now cos' there's a stupid mosquito buzzing around and it's sucking away all my blood.


now i know how manda felt when she said she was doing so much and yet, she just couldn't seem to catch up.

i felt like i'm been doing so much this past week, and yet, i haven't even completed revision for even one single topic yet. still halfway at integration, halfway at hydrocarbons. and it's already the second week?! so i calculated, if i go at this rate, say two weeks for two topics, i'll be able to complete a grand total of four topics(of all subjects, not of each) in time for the mids. hurray i'm so going to pass.

and it's not like i've been slacking majorly or what. don't know why i'm so slow. urgh! help!

and what if. i study study study but still do badly for mids?! i would feel damn stupid la. so scared for maths.

ohh, and while i'm at it, i would like to say that applications of integration is a biatch.

omg this year i've really been mugified. since when did i start blogging about studies?!!


at first i thought i could just leave it all behind me. but now i realise that two negatives can actually make a positive, and though i know it's wicked, i wished that that didn't happen, at least it would make it easier for me to cope, at least i knew wouldn't be the only one sinking slowly into self-destruction. i didn't want to be alone, though even if there were others with me, they wouldn't really be with me. i would still be by myself, behind the cold walls of glass.

i'm also upset because i missed world prayer day. slipped my mind completely. if not i would have been in the national indoor stadium by this time.

it's a curse to be able to infer so much from just one sentence which others would have dismissed as random.


sundays are for island creamery.

i had coconut swirl this week. :)


summer.

hung around the pool at you's condo again.

in the morning, we saw a three boys boasting that they could dive into the pool better than each other, so they each went to find a spot to jump in. then on the count of three, they dived in with much gusto. almost immediately, they were choking and coughing on the water like crazy. and you started laughing. haha. sadist.

noon, swam, then went up to you's house to have lunch and nap for a while.

evening, went down to the pavillion to do integration. lol.

i'm tired, but happy.