"You're wishin' too much, baby. You gotta stop wearing your wishbone where your backbone oughta be.”
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i know i'd said i would be turning in but i was reading the blogs of one of the j1s. she reminded me of afc kfc and efc in sajc. that seemed like so long ago even though it was just less than one year. and it's funny to think that it is actually happening in aj now.

i can still understand how she feels because i felt it before but i know that given the same situation now, i would just brush it off.

you know, that makes me feel so old.

okay now i am really going to bed.


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just ain't right.

it's been more of ingratiation than anything else. the worse thing is that it's mutual.


went to collect the birks today. mine was, well, worse than expected, but i suppose i'll learn to like it someday. it's always like that with all the stuff i buy online, nothing comes the way i expect it to. the stuff i really can't stand (or fit), i resell them. the stuff i still can bear to keep, i start to like them after some time, albeit a little reluctantly. it's an acquired liking. haha. but i want to get another pair! gizeh next time round.

then met jiejie meimei and lala in town. my legs are tired from all that walking, my throat is burning from the green curry i ate for dinner and my eyes are dying! seriously i need to get specs, wearing contacts can be quite tiresome sometimes, especially when your eyes get dry and painful and the lenses start shifting around. maybe i'll get them on my birthday. earholes for christmas and now specs for birthday. lol.


my state of mind, my thoughts, my heartache. all left on the eleventh floor.

because i still want what i can't touch.


today's rehearsals were terrible. i can't do chinese dance for nuts! before the performance i clean forgot the steps. had a complete mental block. usually that never happens because with other dances, the steps will be imprinted in my head. and when the music starts it's all natural movement, i don't have to think because it has become a routine. but somehow chinese dance and me doesn't connect! :(

i wasn't the only one who forgot the steps though. somehow everything screwed up today. probably because we were all rushing to finish the cny decorations desperately in between all the warm-ups and last minute practices before all the rehearsals. as usual, we were unused to the stage dimensions and it didn't help that so many of the dancers were tired and sick. wenting gave us a scare after the curtains closed, i thought she had a nosebleed or fainted or something. then of course, we got nagged at by our teacher-in-charge because apparently our performance was "atrocious" and "unfit for public view". sigh.

on a lighter note, yizhen and i had loads of fun putting up the red banner today. we literally rolled on the floor laughing because we were so tickled by our own stupidity, like cutting the cloth crookedly and using scotch-tape to fix the problem. haha. neither of us knew how to tie the banner to the railings properly too, we just tied lots of knots. hope it doesn't fall off.

then was supposed to meet my og at kfc after that, but when everything finally ended, i called yingtong and found out they were leaving already! so sad. yepps. but at least some of them were nice enough to message me that they missed me! how sweet of them. haha.


movie night's tomorrow! hopefully dance will end early enough for me to join my og before the movie ends. dance is like taking up every afternoon of my life. got to go decorate the school right after lessons end, and then go for the rehearsal for chinese new year. argh. busy busy busy. plus my maths holiday assignment is way overdue! so much for promising to finish all my holiday homework.

did mass earring-shopping today. 4 pairs muahaha. i'm broke!

gotta spend the night making more streamers for the school decoration. yikes. better start now or i'll never get to sleep.


the sun's finally out again. yay.


the miracle worker and your green-eyed goddess.

she knows it's too late as we're walking on by.


first day of lessons of the year, okay i guess. managed to complete a reasonable amount of homework after staying up till four last night. that doesn't include maths though. i so hate maths. was totally counting down the minutes to the end of maths tutorials today. plus mrs soon's getting more naggy. ohh highlight of the day - chem make-up class! we got really high and started giving mr ng the macho and sexy claps and making cheers with words like "electrophilic substitution" and such. haha we rock man. and yes, pun intended.


orientation.

katru is warming up! first day they were really dead, at least today they started being enthusiastic and cheering and everything. yay. tomorrow will be even better, i know. ;)

there's one st. marg's girl in my group, out of like only three or four in the entire aj?! haha. she's nice of course.

moving away from the topic of orientation, i have one thing to be very sad about! i ordered this pair of really really really nice birks, but, they were sold out. so i'm going to get my second choice instead, which is not bad(since all birks are nice). but still! *sobs* disappointed.

keep myself busy.


relient k are geniuses! want to get their album, on top of dido's and the all-american rejects'. should head down to gramophone sometime soon.

school's starting the day after tomorrow. orientation's kinda exciting. they said we weren't supposed to chat with the j1s when we called them but i ended up chatting with one anyway haha. there were really difficult parents too. one of them kept firing me with all sorts of questions like "why didn't the school send a letter? how can they trust you all to convey the message verbally?", "why does my daughter have to bring so much money to school?!", "will my daughter get ragged and taupok-ed?" and "why does school start so early? how do you expect my daughter to wake up in time?!" geez!

i haven't kept any of my holiday resolutions. zilch. not even tidying up my room lol. managed to do a little bit of maths though. as for holiday homework...not finished yet, no surprise there. but at least there's an extra week because of ogl, hopefully i can complete most of it by then.

it's 2006, i'm a j2! it's quite scary actually, i'm afraid i can't cope cos' of the public performance this year. not that i coped very well with school last year, even without any intensive dance practices. hmm must study hard from now on.