"You're wishin' too much, baby. You gotta stop wearing your wishbone where your backbone oughta be.”
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you know, we're similar in more ways than i ever imagined.

but i'm tired of being the reflection of that someone else. of being the pale lie of a girl in the mirror, shattering into a thousand pieces the moment it breaks, all bright and sharp. and when it does, all you'll see is multiplications of someone else in a thousand tiny pieces.

and me, in a thousand more jags and shards.


so many songs, so little space. argh. i want my nano!

you just have to agree, she glows.


i'm sick. first time this year you know. :D
think i caught a cold from playing in the rain the other day. my nose is blocked now.
still had ice-cream for dinner lol, plus even helped amanda finish her rum-and-raisin. though it wasn't very nice. haha.

girls' day out today. girls' day out tomorrow. yay.

back to the start.


the armeno dance is really nice! but after the new blocking and change in positioning, i got assigned to the group which doesn't get to do the introduction, and does all the moves in the left. can't do the dance as well as i did in the right side, maybe because i'm not used to it yet. still, i'm so not a lefter. wanna go back to my old position! hmmph.

went to yingjun's house today, then to benvento's again for dinner. quite tired of italian food already, we've been eating it so often. miss home-cooked food - can't wait for my maid to come back. haha.

green adidas bag, brown adidas samba bag or yellow and green club adidas bag? darn. online shopping is a sin.

i have a dream. which will need at a lot a lot a lot of money to fulfill. haha. SOMEDAY. mark my words ;) meanwhile i can continue dreaming. lol.


"torn".

i thought i saw a man brought to life
he was warm, he came around like he was dignified
he showed me what it was to cry

well you couldn't be that man i adored
you don't seem to know, don't seem to care what your heart is for
but i don't know him anymore

there's nothing where he used to lie
my conversation has run dry
that's what's going on, nothing's fine

i'm torn
i'm all out of faith, this is how i feel
i'm cold and i am shamed lying naked on the floor
illusion never changed into something real
i'm wide awake and i can see the perfect sky is torn
you're a little late, i'm already torn.

so i guess the fortune teller's right
should have seen just what was there and not some holy light
but you crawled beneath my veins and now
i don't care, i have no luck, i don't miss it all that much
there's just so many things that i can't touch

i'm torn
i'm all out of faith, this is how i feel
i'm cold and i am shamed lying naked on the floor
illusion never changed into something real
i'm wide awake and i can see the perfect sky is torn
you're a little late, i'm already torn.


yay! purple_rouge got its first customer! not bad, considering that it took only 2 days since it became a registered seller. daner and i really put a lot of effort into this business, scouring the streets for materials all over singapore, then trying all ways and means to put the products together. my nails are totally scratched because i used my fingers to pry the wires open, the skin at the top of my fingers are peeling, and there are little dents on my fingertips. daner also sacrificed a lot, she even used her teeth to clamp the wires down! (haha, better not let any potential customers read this)

at first when i first started making the products i was thinking, why spend so much time and effort on something which can only give us a few dollars of profit? it's so much easier to just get that money from my parents. haha, it's true when they say our generation is the one known for instant gratification. but though this may sound cliche, it really does give one a sense of satisfaction after someone buys the stuff you make. not because of the amount of money you get, that's only a meagre sum, but rather because it's truly your hard-earned-sweat-and-blood money. hmm. this sounds like some reflection essay lol.

sigh. meanwhile it'll take a long long time for us to cover our start-up costs. we haven't even earned back our fixed costs yet while our variable costs are increasing as we are buying more materials. i don't even know how long this new-found interest will last. oh well, at least i'm way more proficient in using the pliers and wirecutters now!


when i'm sleepy my head's lolling around my eyelids are droopy they're heavy with sleepdust, i start sprouting nonsense saying whatever i think without even thinking and even if i'm thinking i'm not even thinking right. so i'm going off now before my head crashes into the keyboard. don't know why i'm so tired when it's still this early. this is total nonsense, i just wasted an entry. or maybe it's the wine, i'm used to getting sedated on wine but not to this extent.


celebrated jamin's birthday yesterday with mayhwee charles and shaun. though it was quite a flop because we didn't have enough money nor time to buy nice presents, it's the thought that counts right? haha. besides, the look on jamin's face when we tricked him into believing that we bought him a pair of purple heels with furballs on top was priceless. i was flipping over with laughter.

then met the 4e5 for reunion at swensen's. i guess it was okay, only half the class came and it wasn't as fun as the last time when we met at pizza hut. no matter how much i want to believe otherwise, i think i'm beginning to feel the distance.

went out today with amander to give ourselves a make-over. haha! we spent half the time waiting and waiting for our turn because formula cuts was really crowded, going goo-goo-ga-ga over everything in a toy-shop and pigging out on deep-fried mars bars. my hair is rather short now. the hairstylist cut a fringe for me but i was irritated with it because it was too long and kept bothering my eyes, so, i went home i cut it shorter myself. now i look so toot. argh. but overall today was quite fun. and i got my big chewy cookie fix. :)

well i'll get my coffee and then it's another night of writing and earrings-making. but after daner told me about emily rose i don't think i'll dare to stay up to 3 anymore.


i'm going to die of starvation and my fridge and cupboards are totally bare. no food in the house. urgh.

finally catching up on my books now. have never read so little in my life! haha but at least i have time to do so now. drowning myself in francesca lia block's prose. i love her to bits - her words are so simple, but yet conveys messages so powerfully. and with such beauty.

read 6 this week. whoo. self-proclaimed bookworm. hehe.


love my dottie girls.

you all light up my life. ;)


some holiday resolutions...

1) get more clothes
2) tidy up my room
3) work on my maths

nothing ambitious, but i'll be adding some more when i think of them.

tomorrow the 25 girls will be out shopping while i'll be at lily's house doing PW. -_-"


maid's on holiday for a whole month. which means that many of my things are going to go and remain missing till she comes back. my wooden comb, for one. i lost it the day after she left and no one's gonna help me find it :(. also, i have to help with the chores, which i don't mind doing actually. and, eating out daily because everyone's too lazy to cook! haha.

my legs are killing me. intensive retail therapy over the past two days. urgh, back to school tomorrow.