"You're wishin' too much, baby. You gotta stop wearing your wishbone where your backbone oughta be.”
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can't believe the first week of the hols is gone already. i've been so busy, these few days, even busier than during term time. and at long last, i'm beginning to feel some zest in my life. seriously all school does is make life seem meaningless. haha.

for those who have been asking: i have been mugging. *applauds* haha, then again, like sarah said, it depends on what your definition of mugging is. but the point is, i have been doing some work at least. yup.

till now i still don't know where the affinity stemmed from. perhaps it was the prospect of seeking some kind of reminder of my old life in sa. or the life i could have had in cj or ac. i don't know. maybe.

been going out a lot too. like almost everyday of the week? haha. monday was at causeway point and junction 8 with dan er, tuesday was at kap and westmall with youyi, wednesday was in town with my darling mom(who bought me loads of stuff :)), thursday stayed at home, friday went to suntec, saturday went to town and today, going to town again. like in 15 minutes time. hehe.

my insomnia's back. that's the reason why i've been doing a lot of thinking these few days. because there's nothing else to do until i doze off at 4am every morning. though i close my eyes, my mind is still whirring, a million thoughts rushing through. thoughts of life, thoughts of school. of the present, the future. but mostly of the past. and thoughts of you.

i realise i do like aj. i don't regret my choice. it's only that i still don't feel the connection like i did to sa and st. marg's. maybe it's because the culture is so different from what i have been used to for the past few years. hopefully the bond will form, someday.

i've this sudden terrible paranoia of getting retained! how how how?! argh. but i'm too lazy to do anything about it. mug some more? haha.

my sister lost the $50 voucher from royal sporting house. like #%&@^*! and she's totally nonchalent about it. like hello? that's like throwing a $50 note out of the window! and while i'm turning the whole house upside down searching for it, she's sitting down in front of the computer, eyes glued to her stupid runescape game. sheesh, that's so helpful. chances are, by murphy's law, it'll turn up right after it expires. i'm almost positive about that.

i thought i saw a flicker of emotion in your eyes. but i probably imagined it. because you are the sunshine, extending your warmth to everything and everyone. because nothing ever turns out the way you want them to - life would be too easy that way.