"You're wishin' too much, baby. You gotta stop wearing your wishbone where your backbone oughta be.”
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went to j8 after the papers to study chem with sarah today. well, at least i know a little bit more about chem equilibrium now. then, after she went off, i went shopping! haha. yeah i know there aren't that many nice shops in j8 but hey, i'm one deprived person! stupid common tests. then after i walked through all the shops i still didn't feel satisfied, so i went to thomson plaza to shop somemore. it's more like just walking aimlessly, though, because i just didn't feel like going home. i even went inside the florist shop to kill time. lol.

today's papers sucked. bigtime. sigh. i'll probably say the same things for the rest of the papers as well so i shall just shut up, study and do my best.

but first i'm going to take a nap. tired.

one more thing to add to my post-exam to-do list: go to church.


back to school. was feeling rather high after the gp paper haha. went for lunch with class at nyp and met kirsten there to chat for a while. sure feels good to see all of them again.

maths and econs tomorrow. i'm almost done with maths, excluding trigo which i am totally giving up on, but i haven't touched econs a single bit yet! so gonna flunk, especially when i have not been doing my essays nor listening in tutorials. haha but actually i don't feel very flustered about it. in fact i was supposed to have started on econs last night but i ended up reading old issues of 'seventeen' instead. sigh. wish i would feel at least a little more pressurised. i'm still in the holiday mood. lol.

can't wait for the tests to be over. then i can quickly rush down to see what's left of the mango/topshop/dorothy perkins end-of-season sale. though they're probably only left with all the weird sizes or ugly designs by then. hmm. still deciding if i should crash cj on friday. haha it'll be so fun! but my class would most likely wanna go on an outing or something so i don't know.


from now on.

why?

i seriously have no idea. but it's time to stop pondering over it day after day because i will never find out. not anytime soon anyway.

this time i will forget. and it won't be a half-hearted attempt like all my previous ones.

i love storms. the thunder. the lightning.
walking in the rain. being drenched. cleansed.

try not to think.
try not to.
try not.
try.

francesca lia block is simply magical.

i will be happy. even if i have to force myself to.


someday my imagination's going to kill me. coming up with a thousand and one possibilities which are absurd from an outsider's point of view but yet very probable to me. the worries which plague me are baseless, unfounded, illogical ones, but they hover over my mind, crippling me from doing anything else. and no, it has nothing to do with schoolwork or anything of that sort. it's about them.

maybe this is how people go nuts.


went to watch batman begins with dan er and yingjun today. it's totally awesome! i love batman. hehe.

can't believe i actually like the "i love paris" totebag from guess. what happened to my taste?! lol. it would be perfect if only they didn't write "i love paris" on it. because i do not love paris. (i burst into laughter when she got killed in house of wax, remember?) should i get it? it's like so bimbotic and bitchy and materialistic and i will probably never use it. but i like! haha.

feeling so high now. courtesy of batman. and maybe the white tea from heaven-and-earth (it's my new favourite!). i realised recently that i get high on tea and sedated on red wine. how weird.

i'm going to start mugging proper tomorrow - promise!


transient happiness.

gathering with the saints at sinwen's house. but times like this make me wish i had never transferred out of sa. sigh.

common tests are drawing nearer. i am so dead. better start revision soon.


the 4-day dance technique workshop has ended. and has left me aching in the weirdest places. the sides of my waist, the back of my thighs. oh and my calves and shoulders too. owwww.

it was quite enjoyable actually. kinda like yoga class. we've been using the choir room, because the dance room is under renovation (due to leaky aircons which leaves puddles of water on the floor, and also because the whole plank of mirror on the wall fell off and crashed onto the floor. what kind of school is this? we give them gold with honours and they give us this pathetic place to practise in.) anyway, the choir room is different. it is very nice(unfair!). we come early in the morning, change into our dance clothes and lie on the floor, chatting with each other while we wait for the instructor to come. then we do stretching, technique exercises and some short dances. it's extremely therapeutic. dancing. hee.

whoo! i'm happy i can sleep in tomorrow. no more waking up early for the rest of the holidays!

went to ang mo kio library with dan er yesterday where we were supposed to study. it was a very productive session. like i did 8 mcqs on physical quantities and units. and she did 2 math problems on binomials. for a whole 5 hours. wow. i have no idea how we did that. in the end, we decided it was useless to stay on since we weren't doing much work and headed to junction 8 to walk around. we stayed till pretty late because she didn't feel like going home. haha. most of the time was spent chatting at mos over a cup of ice milk tea.

shucks. just remembered. i have to wake up super early tomorrow! because i have a PW meeting at nine at amk library. grrrr. wenjie is crazy. i told him the library only opens at ten, and he's like oh easy, then we'll do it outside the library. great. so all 5 of us will be squatting outside the library talking about vegetables. haha.



Your True Birth Month Is March

Moody

Secretive

Revengeful

Trustworthy

Affectionate

Loves traveling

Loves attention

Shy and reserved

Musically talented

Loves home decor

Not easily angered

Sensitive to others

Loves special things

Attractive personality

Loves to serve others

Loves peace and serenity

Observant and assess others

Loves to dream and fantasize

Appreciative and returns kindness

Hasty decisions in choosing partners

Naturally honest, generous and sympathetic

You Are 26 Years Old



26




Under 12: You are a kid at heart. You still have an optimistic life view - and you look at the world with awe.

13-19: You are a teenager at heart. You question authority and are still trying to find your place in this world.

20-29: You are a twentysomething at heart. You feel excited about what's to come... love, work, and new experiences.

30-39: You are a thirtysomething at heart. You've had a taste of success and true love, but you want more!

40+: You are a mature adult. You've been through most of the ups and downs of life already. Now you get to sit back and relax.







Your Brain is 86.67% Female, 13.33% Male



You have the brain of a girly girl
Which isn't a bad thing at all
You're emphatetic, caring, and in tune with emotions.
You're a good friend and give great advice.




can't believe the first week of the hols is gone already. i've been so busy, these few days, even busier than during term time. and at long last, i'm beginning to feel some zest in my life. seriously all school does is make life seem meaningless. haha.

for those who have been asking: i have been mugging. *applauds* haha, then again, like sarah said, it depends on what your definition of mugging is. but the point is, i have been doing some work at least. yup.

till now i still don't know where the affinity stemmed from. perhaps it was the prospect of seeking some kind of reminder of my old life in sa. or the life i could have had in cj or ac. i don't know. maybe.

been going out a lot too. like almost everyday of the week? haha. monday was at causeway point and junction 8 with dan er, tuesday was at kap and westmall with youyi, wednesday was in town with my darling mom(who bought me loads of stuff :)), thursday stayed at home, friday went to suntec, saturday went to town and today, going to town again. like in 15 minutes time. hehe.

my insomnia's back. that's the reason why i've been doing a lot of thinking these few days. because there's nothing else to do until i doze off at 4am every morning. though i close my eyes, my mind is still whirring, a million thoughts rushing through. thoughts of life, thoughts of school. of the present, the future. but mostly of the past. and thoughts of you.

i realise i do like aj. i don't regret my choice. it's only that i still don't feel the connection like i did to sa and st. marg's. maybe it's because the culture is so different from what i have been used to for the past few years. hopefully the bond will form, someday.

i've this sudden terrible paranoia of getting retained! how how how?! argh. but i'm too lazy to do anything about it. mug some more? haha.

my sister lost the $50 voucher from royal sporting house. like #%&@^*! and she's totally nonchalent about it. like hello? that's like throwing a $50 note out of the window! and while i'm turning the whole house upside down searching for it, she's sitting down in front of the computer, eyes glued to her stupid runescape game. sheesh, that's so helpful. chances are, by murphy's law, it'll turn up right after it expires. i'm almost positive about that.

i thought i saw a flicker of emotion in your eyes. but i probably imagined it. because you are the sunshine, extending your warmth to everything and everyone. because nothing ever turns out the way you want them to - life would be too easy that way.