"You're wishin' too much, baby. You gotta stop wearing your wishbone where your backbone oughta be.”
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you thought wrong.

for the first time this year, i'm beginning to feel the stress of jc life pressing on me. in aj, everyone is so smart and hardworking and does their work dutifully all the time. urgh. i'm a whole three months' behind them. like when they do tutorials and stuff, i'll always be a few questions lagging behind trying to read the notes and figure out the topic. plus there's the common tests on week 6, so i'll have term 2 work plus the first intake work to catch up on. lots of work and so little time. sigh.

tried to rush forces and ap-gp tutorial last night and i did finish. at least i thought i did, because the teacher said only do the first eight questions. in the end when i came to school, i realised that on the average most in my class had already finished the first fifteen questions. gosh. so the teacher went through everything and i was lagging behind again.

went for dance auditions today...i only had 30 mins to learn the dance while others had 2+ hrs. not fair! i didn't know that we could be excused from afternoon pe to go for the auditions. but i think the auditions were quite alright, thankfully i manage to learn the steps in time. wasn't very nervous because i felt de javu during the auditions! dreamt of doing the auditions before...just that i didn't know that the place in my dream was aj dance studio. cool huh? de javus are such strange things. the feeling hits you suddenly, and a few familiar images flashes through your mind. but the more you try to clutch onto the memory and recall, the more the feeling slips away.

now there are blisters on my feet because there was so much turning and twirling involved in the dance routine. ouch. hope i get in. *crosses fingers*

chem practical today was quite disastrous. i didn't know how to wash all the apparatus *points finger at ms siti*. lol. then out of sheer stupidity i did titration without adding an indicator, because i thought it was potassium manganate and would change colour by itself. so i was titrating until almost all the solution in my burette was gone and wondering why it took so long. hahahaha it was really funny now that i think of it.

you're worse than i thought. but i can't help it. i'll just wait. everything will fade over time right?