"You're wishin' too much, baby. You gotta stop wearing your wishbone where your backbone oughta be.”
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inertia.

dilpreet just called to tell me that there are vacanies in the arts stream. two, in fact, just right for the two of us. now i'm forced to make a decision. before, i was thinking that if fate wants us to be in the arts stream by giving us vacanies, then i would gladly oblige and transfer there. that was because i was so sure that the arts stream was packed to the brim after talking to the arts hod countless times. then two girls transferred out. and now i'm not so sure.

dilpreet sounded elated when she told me the news, so i'm quite certain that she will transfer over. when i heard the news though, i felt my heart sink. that's my instinct.

on the other hand, if i transfer over, i will be in the same class as benita, dilpreet, wang chin, arrifin...plus the people in that class are generally friendly.

i can study lit. i'm not that keen on geography though, since i haven't taken it before and it's quite risky. but i think i can still cope. in arts stream i know i will enjoy studying and school. the downside is that arts subjects are very unpredictable, unlike maths and science, you can't practise questions on it and expect to improve. they're very skill-based, it's either you have it or you don't. also, if i take arts, i can only go to arts faculty in university. although that's what i've been planning to do all along, i'm wondering if i will change my mind later.

my mom told me, for your whole life, you've been doing things based only on your interest. you like this, you do this, you like that, you do that. it may not be that way in the future. if you go to arts now, and end up as a arts graduate from nus, are you prepared that you may not find a job which you ideally want and like? which is possible since the demand for arts graduates in singapore is relatively low. furthermore, many people who are in arts-related jobs now never did arts at university, many are science graduates. and what if your priorities change in the future? right now you only care about doing what you are interested in because money comes easy to you, all you need to do is ask for it. but in the future it may not be the same. you may find it more important to have a high-paying job rather than one which you like but has a meagre salary. when that happens, you will wish you took science because it opens up much more options for you.

actually i already knew the answer before even typing this entry. i'm afraid to leave my comfort zone for something unknown. so i'll give myself 2 more years to decide.