"You're wishin' too much, baby. You gotta stop wearing your wishbone where your backbone oughta be.”
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i could always take the easy way out and put sajc as my first choice. then i would just go back to the same familiar building, wear their beautiful uniform, and have fun for the rest of my jc life. everything would run so smoothly. no need to re-adapt, no need for regrets, no need to compare. that sounds pretty tempting.

but have i forgotten how many times, sitting in the cafe doing nothing, i wished to be somewhere else? i feel a kind of emptiness in sa, that everything is too slack, as if school is just a carnival to have fun in. i feel insecure without solid ground beneath my feet. how will i end up after 2 years of education in sa? sa may not be as slack after second intake. but how can i be sure?

aj is on the other extreme. boring, cheena, walking robots, no life. haha, it's so amusing to hear how exaggerated the impression of ajc is. that is, i hope it's exaggerated. when i went to the open house last year, i hated the school so much that i vowed never to go there. the building was awful, and so was the atmosphere and uniform. when i came back home i immediately threw away all the brochures they gave without even taking a look at them, and for pae, aj wasn't in any one of my 12 choices.

but now, it might be my first choice. if i don't choose sa. sigh. confusion.