"You're wishin' too much, baby. You gotta stop wearing your wishbone where your backbone oughta be.”
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OUR CHEERLEADING SKIRTS ARE SO CUTE!!!

spoken like a true bimbo. haha. but really, they are pretty! dark blue with baby blue plaits and a silver lining at the edges. but a tad too short though. today was the first and last time i'll be wearing it. :(

met the cheerleaders at toa payoh interchange this morning. i was late by 15 mins and they were all waiting for me...so pai-seh! anyway, we went to change into our costumes before going to rehearse. just realised a few hours before our performance that the stage was too small for our final formation, so we had to do some imprompto changes. i got promoted from a splitter to a flyer! yay! i've always wanted to fly haha. then joyce and i also had to think up of new dance steps to do while they were throwing xiaowei up. overall, i thought our cheer was not bad. better than expected, considering all the last-minute changes. but, we still didn't get into the top three cheers. *sobs* i think our stunts were not elaborate enough. SA got in 2nd in the overall Danceworks though, guess that's something to be happy about.

later, i went to yuanling's house with celena for a bbq. it was supposed to be an og outing but only 4 other people from og11 turned up. the rest were outsiders. haha. it was quite boring actually. i just sat at the table with celena to chat and eat and eat and eat while the guys cooked. haha. i'm gonna grow fat.


priscilla's experience was really sad. i don't want that to happen to me. which means i have to question myself - am i really happy in sajc? currently, the only reason why i want to stay is because i got used to life here. that's all. and as the days go by, instead of feeling a sense of belonging to sa, i feel a growing sense of detachment deep inside. but is ajc going to be better? what if everything just gets worse and worse?


funfair was fun! haha. went to school at 730 in the morning to help out with the shifting of prizes and bottled water from the ideas room to the prize booth, before getting ready for dance performance. nobody whom i know watched it! only the parents and outsiders:(. anyway i think we danced quite well, everything was relatively co-ordinated. hehe. but the performance was over so quickly, all our intensive training over the past week gone in two short minutes. oh well. still have danceworks cheer to concentrate on.

after dance, i rushed over to the class's stall to do shift duty. which mainly consisted of lazing around and stoning, because it was too early and there were no customers yet. then when jacq and liting came we went to explore the funfair together.

at noon i met dan er and yingjun and showed them around sajc. saw so many people from st. marg's today! happy hehe. dan er bought me a big snoopy-head balloon, which flew away later when i went for dance duty. *sobs* oh. about dance duty- it was exhausting! our stall was this buffet thing, and we were supposed to sell 6 items for 5 bucks. so for 2 hours, we walked up and down the table serving people. tiring. especially when the customers are picky ("Don't give me so small lah, i want a bigger piece"). one thing i learnt from this is always know what you are selling. at one point, this woman pointed to a pastry and asked it was. i was stunned, because it was some french name which i didn't know how to pronounce. the first thing which came out of my mouth was, "erm, it's some thingy made out of flour." sheesh. i felt so dumb.


today was terrible. a series of unpleasant incidents one after another. i don't know why my dad's angry with me. he just went,"i don't like you to do these kind of things" and walked off. i don't even know what kind of things he is talking about. is it the funfair? is it me spending too much time on dance? is it because i'm home late everyday? is it because i went out tonight? or did mr lee call me and tell him i skipped chem practical? so many possibilites but i don't know which one. and now guilt is gnawing its way through my heart because i have so many things to be guilty about.


i'm so tired i can hardly move. plus aching all over too. we had dance for nearly 5 hours continuously today. next week, we have more practice everyday of the week to train for campus rampus opening ceremony, and next next week, we have practice everyday too, to train for danceworks and cheerobics. it's going to be exhausting. but enough of the whining.

yesterday i met up with tracy yijun vanessa huilin kwan chaun isaac jianwei and yao min at j8 to celebrate yijun's birthday. we had dinner and sat there chatting for quite a while, before they went to play pool at ang mo kio, while i had to go home because of my curfew -_-. hmmmph. why am i the only one who has a curfew? anyway, it's weird. for most people, they are close to their primary school classmates in primary school, then after they get separated into different secondary schools they drift further and further apart. but in our class, it's the opposite - the guys and girls were sworn enemies in pri 6, it was only after we graduated that we got to know each other better, and i daresay we are quite united compared to other classes. so rock on ats/6f/2000! hehehe

i have so many things to do next week. on top of cheerleading practice, i have that darn maths test on AP, GP and sigma notation which i am so going to flunk. gotta start staring at my notes tomorrow, and try to figure it out. i need mr dion! i need maths tuition! sigh. maybe i should try joining yingjun at caravan. hmm, i don't know what to get for my valentine (S72's v-day thingy)... oh crap. just realised v-day is on monday! which means i only have tomorrow left to shop for a gift! and get chocolates for my dah-lings. uh-oh. think i'm really going to flunk maths.


i'm going back to st. marg's tomorrow...can't wait to see 4e5/2004 again! i'm gonna hug every single one of them hehe. :)


went out shopping for new year clothes with dan er today. i met so many people in orchard - lukas amanda jialing reetika yuanling and jacqueline. haha. initially i wanted to get a top from roxy, but they were all horrible, so in the end we just walked around in heeren. hmmm think i'm going to get a top from there on tuesday; saw one which i liked but had no time to try on. i seriously need a wardrobe makeover, and lots and lots of new clothes. anyone wants to sponsor? ;)


i was happy today. i can finally feel myself settling down, getting a firmer grip on JC life. the jokes, the laughter and little snippets of harmless gossip. friends, pigging out in the cafe, lazing around in the student center...finally i feel the tension easing away.

over the past month, i have known some people better, and some worse. well, not exactly worse...just discovered the ugly side of their characters. it's quite sad, and ironic, in a way, that it has to be an old friend.

on a more positive note, the people in my CG are great and we all are getting along well together.

life is still far from perfect, but i am content. let's hope things pick up from here.