"You're wishin' too much, baby. You gotta stop wearing your wishbone where your backbone oughta be.”
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I think i've forgotten how to be around people. i'm tired of trying to socialise during OG or CG outings, especially with people i can't click with. thinking of the right things to say, wondering if they find my jokes funny or not...it all drains up so much energy. sometimes in the middle of a group conversation, i suddenly find myself staring into blank space. remembering. the times I spent with my old friends, especially dan er. i could do anything with her, even the most embarrassing things and she would laugh it off with me. i never realized the chemistry we had until now, i could tell her anything, there were no boundaries limiting what we could talk about. in fact, there were times where we didn't need to say anything at all, i would glance at her face and she would glance at mine and we would know exactly what each other was thinking. i miss her being around so, so much.